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Sunday, November 28, 2004



hmm...todae rather gud la..lol. mornin ard 11 den woke up, break record man- usualli wake up quite earli de wor. den wake up le came online...den check check see who online la..actuali is bro woke me up de..climb to the bed..den ask me the acc pw..grr...and actuali stil can slp longer de..budden dun wan.haha...stil abit tired lor..den he online. quite happi..haha..chat a while..go brush teeth..den chat a while more sis wake up..have to go offline..den he sae he mebbe gg jp..den like veri unsure lor..haiz...abit kinda sian diao..budden still got meet him!haha..damn happi la..budden i late ar..zzz..when my bus turn inside the interchange, saw him coming outta the pet shop. haiz...den raining until rather heavy..so nv cut ar..so walk one big round to go to the pet shop..saw xinfei and her mum..den walk wif them all the wae inside jp lor..hmm..den run to the pet shop..look ard, he not inside the building..walk out and saw him..haiz...dis stupid pig..standin in the rain...got shelter la..budden abit nia..haiz....he ar..*eh...got prob..suddenly the rest of the txt gone..*
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smtimes...will realise that gurl usuali will give and put in more effort in a relationship.. and when gurls ask for a break up..the guy will try all means to salvage the relationship..but however..smtimes its the other wae round bahz?and if its the other wae round..the gurl will be damn bo chup..haiz....mebbe in dis case, both are not ready for a relationship? realise that if u wanna enter a relationship, trust and commitment and being understanding is veri impt...when the gurl is hanging ard wif her male fren, will her bf understand and trust her that they're juz frenz?so..its veri impt that the guy is understanding enuff...and not being over-protective, and sensitive..haiz....guess i tokin crap bahz..wth?
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haiz...beginning to feel that alot of ppl are avoiding me..am i too sensitive or wad?probably is due to the break-up between me and jj......haiz...mebbe i changing acc or wadeva..cuz i wanna write tings and keep it to myself..i oso dunnoe la..haiz....tok to my gor..he sae he kinda disappointed wif me..i noe alot of ppl oso veri angry wif me...i noe its all my fault..caused so mach troubles...make ppl sad...he sae im selfish..perhaps i reali am...so...will they forgive me if i dun like aniberdy? tink i shld do some self reflection.....and let go of him...i dunnoe..reali confused now...even some of my np frenz treat me differently le...haiz....................its all my fault.......... :'( ......... shld i anot?shld i let go of him?


traces of you remained in my mind after you left.i was dumbfounded when u held my hand.i wished i didn't have to let go of your hand hence i hold it tightly...very tightly.....however you let go of mine. will our 'relationship' end just like this? letting go of my hand is easy, but letting go of you will be a tough job. i've came this far but is there a need to end this? am i letting go because of you or because of how people think and feel? is this worth it? only either one of us know all the answer.

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hoping to see an angel.flying to me and guide me. tell me what should i do?i wanna leave this sad place. i really wish i could. this hurts and i hate this feeling.


=) 5:51 PM