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Monday, June 15, 2009



i feel like a zombie. really.. so tired but i cant sleep. i should be in bed nw.

have i said too many white lies? probably. i should stop lying to myself.

everyday, i go to bed telling myself its ok. but its not. it NEVER was 'OKAY'.

every minute i tell myself not to think about it. but i cant

all the time i talk to people. all they can say is ' just try' . 'just try' is not enough. not now, not in the near future. it is NEVER enough.

you can be laughing your ass off and say that mine is just a small problem. i'll f you upside down cus you're not seeing the full picture.

can i stop struggling with myself? shouldn't you stop haunting me...?

whatever that i've been trying to cover up seemed too much for me to handle.

i'll feel 50% better if im given 5% of stress discount. hahahahahahahahahahaha. not funny.

i really need to channel my negative energy elsewhere..

=) 1:51 AM