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Friday, June 18, 2010



it can be pretty astonishing to know how ironic life is. sigh, actually i have many things that i wanna say out. but not now.. wanted to blog it out but yeah... feeling too sian to do so.

anyhow, i need to rush thru like 3 topics of math and 1 uncomplete chap of bio and AHHH...........so many things to do! but what's gonna motivate me is that im finally meeting my dearest abang later. =D

why do i keep dreaming of things thats like giving me moral guidance when i slp on my mummy's bed? i was just thinking, is it my late maternal grandma whom i've never seen before trying to provide me with guidance through my dreams? this sounds kind of crazy but.. it does make some sense... my mum keeps clothes of my late grandma in her cupboard beside the bed.. so... possible right?

a few days ago.. out of the blue, i asked myself..how it feels to have grandfather's love..to have my maternal grandparent's love.. how it feels to have aunt's and cousin's love.. though i have aunt and cousin, we're not very close.. and for some reason, they had cast a shadow on me for the major part of my life. because of them i felt so...caged? well i guess nobody will ever understand how i feel..

though i know i have so many stuffs to do, sometimes i totally lack that sense of urgency.. im tryin to maintain and keep to my timetable..its hard... coupled with all the frustrations, things can easily get out of hand yea.. its friday already.. i really dun like it. darn it! damn damn damn...

=) 9:00 AM